benjammin524's Xanga

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 02:44:52 GMT

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 04:41:01 GMT

2 WEEKS TILL MY B-DAY... who's excited... i will be 18... trying to decide should i have a party or not? let me know your idea.... or even better someone could plan me one themselves.
Ben

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 17:03:48 GMT

well lets see whats been happenin lately... well yesterday was homecoming... then ate and saw glory road... crashed a party and me and mr mitchell went muddin in the ole honda accord she's kinda dirty now whoops... other than that lately has been alot of thinkin... college soon and i am kinda scared i haven't been the new kid since feb 7, 1988 (my b-day) always the same town, same school, same house, now a whole new city is exciting but scary too. that also has brought questions like where is my life headed will i be happy get my dreams and goals. that also scares me cause what if i fail or dont get exactly what i want. lots of times i cover this stuff up with comedy but here its i me letting it out i am scared and need to figure things out.

Ben

Monday, January 09, 2006

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 21:09:01 GMT

yay schools back not its not started good cause i don't care anymore and the grades continue to decline... whoops!
Ben

Lesson of the Day

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 20:46:55 GMT

Its all about the little things... that one point to be an A, that half a second to win a race, the one word to change a whole day.

I want the world to stop for one week so we can have time together

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 02:53:02 GMT

well lately i have been mostly working. in this past week i worked almost 30 hours. thats rediculous but my check will make it all worth while. other thatn that not a whole lot wish i had more time to do what i really want to but then if i didn't have money i would be in the same situation just for different reasons i guess. it all work out in the end i hope. time will tell i just hope its sooner than later.
Ben

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 04:49:42 GMT

i am too lazy to scan my NYC pics. they aren't very good anyways so don't worry you aren't missing much. nothing really new either. just work and hangin out when i can. i need a week off though to just relax... too bad that won't happen. until next time.
Ben

i miss...

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 02:56:26 GMT

been back from NY for a while now. i think i will put pics soon whenever i can develope them. update better later.
Ben

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 20:53:48 GMT

well its been a little while so i decided to update. i have the ACT tomorrow and that means i got the whole weekend off. Which is nice besides that i have nothing to do tonight... oh well. I also have my senior trip monday in the very early morning. Still not very excited about it but i finally just got to the point where i realize my parents aren't gonna let me stay so might as well try to have some fun although i don't think that will be easy. not to mention that they always say save your money and then i have to use some of that money to eat on the trip and i don't get to work any to save up and they are spending alot of money they could have used so it all seems backwards to me but that doesn't matter. its not like they would listen to my opinion for 2 seconds anyways. thats when you let them think they win all the arguments just to get them off my case 24/7. maybe going on this trip will make them happy enough to loosen up and realize there little boy ain't so little anymore. i guess its something all parents struggle with but it happens to everyone so atleast acknoledge i am a big boy and i can make my own decisions. they have to in less than a year so they should get used to it now so it won't hit them at once. thats my opinion atleast maybe its not perfect but i think it would be a definite improvement. i guess i will update when i return from my trip. see ya.
Ben

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:22:38 GMT

today was a little bit better and hoping not jinx it but things seem to maybe be looking up. fall break this week so maybe this will leave time to figure some stuff out. i don't know if things will ever be exactly like i want them but it sure would be nice. hope tomorrow is even better.
see ya,
ben